I want to care for you when you are sick. I want to be there for you when you are old and tired of this world. I want to hold your hand when you feel low.

I watched a documentary. It reminded me of your time in Spain and how you didn’t talk much about it. It reminded me of another side of you that I think I never got to see. I’m really sorry for not having the courage to ask you to spend more time with me in the last couple of months we had together. I wish I could have got to know you better, find out more about you, learn more about your past, enjoy a more diverse A.

I wish I could have seen all those beautiful, interesting, crazy, strange, and even even bad person that you can be. I wish I could see you in all your glory, in all that you can be. I wish I could see you again for another half a year and do all these things with you, enjoying and getting to know each other better. I wish I could go out and do sports with you. I want to spend time together with you so much…

I want to cook with you, eat with you, drink some good wine and hold your hand, sit on the couch and talk about ourselves.